inside out umbrella

string me up
cut my throat
slice my thighs
burn my rest

I meant my wrist

locked out of joy
forbidden to smile
rip out my eyes
rob me blind

these are the thoughts
that dance in my head
tear at my insides
stitch with black thread

a large latte please, takeaway

not sure where
but I need to escape
solace has abandoned me
the wind sinks sharp teeth
through lonely skin

a fool a fool
to believe in love

a burdened tree with rotting apples
poised to fall
and strike me dead

dead dead doesn’t matter

missing missing no ones searching

circling circling the cold mouth of the drain